Cherry michelle

2008

I remember last year, on Christmas Eve. I woke up and saw weather outside that was confusing me if it really was Christmas or if it was Easter. I went to the store, to buy good bread and meatballs and some other good things I were planning to eat to breakfast.  I had burning candles and a nice breakfast and the last to do was to wake up my friend Anna who was sleeping on my couch. We ate a good meal and after that we looked on the television and then we went home to our families. I think that was the last real Christmas until I start my own family. Christmas day can I even not remember what I'm were doing so I suppose that I don't had fun. (I it had been I would be remember it, right?) New Year was a big disappointment and I wish I had been home and looking on the television instead, (it always good movies on NY but had never watched it). Next year, or I mean this year have I decided to be on a warm, nice beach somewhere in Asia instead.

2008 was and will always be one of the most happening year. My mom got sick, in epilepsy. My old work friend and his son from Primo Industry died in a house fire and left behind his wife and two children. It's a sad story...

I lost my oldest and best friend that I had been friend with since ten years back. Even all this I cant deny that I had a couple of great times too, my USA trip with my little brother, I've have been closer with my dad than ever and I have been change my mind how to think on other people. I have been in London and really had a great time with Anna, Stephanie and Christian. I met some incredibly people who helped me on my way to happiness. I started to work as a tattoo artist, and I really love it. BUT with a big B, I don't know if I want to do this all my years in front right now. I have been working in Tranemo with Cali... Tattoo and now am I in Gothenburg to start a new one, and it feels like... yes, I am young and have my whole life in front of me to settle down and do what I love. But (yes, this but again) it feels like its time for me to travel and see new cultures and see if I can reach a higher happiness. Right now it doesn't feel like I should be in Sweden, my heart is screaming for United States, its screaming for adventures and butterflies in my stomach. When I was in US in September it felt so good, I were feeling so alive and so happy and that's a big fucking good reason to go, just go.

B...ut... Yes, before I go , must I get things done, save money and fix with visa so I`m aloud to stay at least one year. I don't say that I am going to quit my love for the tattoo art, just take a break. I cant afford to have a job like this right now. But going to do so the studio here in Gothenburg goes excellent before I go anywhere. Nothing is finished yet, its many people who must hear my plans before I decide. I don't just want to go and have angry people at me, I want to bee so honest and kind as I can be. So not right now, but in a half year or a year.

Why I am writing in English is because I am trying to get the language floating, to speak and write it without any problem at all. (I have a little problem with the grammatical part).

I have always wondering how my aunts just could leave like they did. But now when I was over there the last time, I were finally understanding, everyone is so different like Swedish citizens , the are nice, kind and have more possibilities. One thing will get to me, I WILL miss my parents and brothers very much but even if we will have a ocean between us will I be with them anyway, maybe not in close but physical. Like my dad once said to me, "my heart is your heart".

Right now, am I in the studio in Gothenburg, under my blanket and it's cold like hell. Have been sick in a week now and my wonderful (not) cold has gone over to my sinus so its hurts very much and the pain is spreading to my jaw. Bad luck...

Now, good luck Michelle, to get some sleep ;).

Loading up some photos from 2008 after this..biipp...